Unknowingly I Fell Deeper In

When all is a mess,

I just came back from Gp Camp, yes a 2D1N programme. Can't say I didn't have fun, cause I'd be lying without blinking my eye. Yes, I wished I had the photos right now to upload it but sad to say I don't, need the pictures to be send to me the next time. But for the time being I still can describe to you about the camp.

1st phase.

We all met at Beyond, then took a bus to Vivo, then took the monorail to Sentosa. Yes we made alot of noise otw but everyone was still shy with the groups & new people. So I was practically talking to Tze Hao, Song Wei & Siva in the starting only. So yes, when we reached Sentosa everyone started talking, mingling around with everyone. Went to Sentosa to play the new High Elements game, MegaZip. Its was freaking scary but fun, but the last MEGAZIP was freaking pain! I swear to you its pain, FOR THE GUYS ESP!. haha. SongWei got stuck on the thing for I think about 5 min or so, I was stuck there too, So did Tze Hao.Haha, so yes, had loads of fun. Went home all worn out.

2nd Phase.

Met at beyond, waited for everyone then off to Kayaking.Haha, it was bloody hot, the sun was sorching okay! I was standing under the shades the whole time, I didn't want to go for it. But too bad had to go, so yes otw made more friends! Nelson, Barry, Farhana, Ellyn, Krishin, Darryl, Cynthia. Yup the ones who were closer I state name okay. Uhm, went for Kayaking in the no choice, partner Nelson, cause IDK how to swim and he know. & more fun with him, can talk can laugh can bully him! haha :D I'm serious I bullied him the whole time. After Kayaking, went to the bus, me and Song Wei SLEPT throughout the whole journey to campsite. But still felt tired!

Days in, Night out

I haven't been able to update at night, cause I'm not home most of the time. Okay so I shall update now, but there's no photo to go along because I apparently lost my phone SO I wasn't able to take any photo neither can I upload any.

Went to WILD WILD WET, with Jodie yesterday. Yes the both of us only, sweet or what huh! It was raining a little yesterday, but it was passing clouds, so it ended real soon. Went around playing, and finally we came to a conclusion that only about 3 things there were fun, the big sliding thing, the half piped and the shiok river. Too bad no video or photos were taken but all I could say we did have fun yesterday, and its been ages since we've spend time with each another only. Went to meet the others at Ho Swee, as usual slacked then head home around 12.30 at night.

While slacking, yes a sudden mood swing, I don't know why but I kinda wanted to keep quiet. The excuse was ' I'm tired' , lame excuse right. But couldn't really care less, I didn't really know what to say yesterday. Maybe its because of you, nah I don't think so. As usual played card, the usual things. Left earlier then the others, Jodie and I had to catch the train. Walked to train station, sat at the steps there, smoked a stick then headed to take the train. Didn't have to run for the train somemore just nice. I like the times when we leave, the last hug, the last sentance, the last kiss.

I was talking to Jodie about something here how it was okay." He's the kind of guy makes my heart skip a beat, the kind who I don't dare to talk face to face, afraid to make direct eye contact, the kind of guy as long as he's happy I am too........" There was lots more but I'm not gonna type everything out. Anyway, had been talking to Jodie about this, but she said that he doesn't even know he's feeling, what for go all out for a guy like that.

Anyways, I'm going out later. Hope we get to take photo later alrights! Loves all. Meeeting them later watching movie I guess, 2012, shall review after I watch. Okayokay, wanna go bath already! Later I late they noisy!

babyLNJ <3

Never thought I'll fall in love just like this, and I don't even know why I do.

Somewhat expected.

I haven't been regular cause I'm not home all the time alrights.

I'm really really sorry.

I don't wanna use blog cause my com cannot download its skins.

Live journal is kind of boring too.

Since I've found this then I shall use it, the colours are quite cute.

So random talking about all this.

OMFG! I'm sick once again, I just recovered and now I'm sick again.

I don't know whatever I'm doing now, am I right or wrong.

Holding on to something that I might not even get.

But it doesn't really matter does it, as long as the other party is happy?

It really melts my heart when a smile is shown.

I don't know by doing all this, will I get anything in return,

I'm not asking for anything in return, all I want to know is that whatever you said was true.

I said, if its true I'll give all out for you and I will not expect anything in return as long as you're happy.

If its not, tell me earlier, we can save each another some time and continue to being like how we used to.

I don't wanna stress you over this kind of things but...

Anyways, I'm not going to elaborate about how I'm feeling right now,

or whatever feelings I get when things happen okay.

My mummy said she'll buy me a phone only around december.

Wanna say its a long time its not long, wanna say short not short.

I don't know what to say also.

So uneasy without a phone, so hard to contact people.

Oh and I decided to take out all my lip piercing and already did.

Meeting eirababy later, gonna go somewhere and I'll be accompanying her.

My mummy forget put money give me, so sad.

And I'm hungry!

And I haven't bath haha.

Okay okay, I'm gonna go bath already, later  eirababy reach already

and know I haven't bath she's gonna go bonkers!

Bye,

babyLNJ <3

I never thought I'll fall for a guy so deep, I'm in love with you.

To love, or to be loved.

this is my ever cute&loving EIRA a.k.a Adeqstar'batman'bubbles.

Anyways, I just reach home & I've got a bad news.

I LOST MY FREAKING LOUSY PHONE.

Guess what, I don't even know how I lost it.

Sorry I lost all the contacts, & my phone.

OMFG all the pictures & stuff.

URGHS!

Anyways, I've been through alot this few days,

1. Imagine this situation.

You like this guy, & going on as expected,

suddenly this girl that he used to like appeared

& declared that she like him too.

The guy obviously is in a dilemma,

but all you really ever wanted for him

is for him to be happy.

Subsequently, you send him a msg.

Saying about how you felt when you saw him with her,

& whatever they're doing.

You felt your heart aching.

& you said you only wanted the best for him.

Doesn't matter who he chose.

Then when you really thought everything will be alright,

he suddenly have a change in attitude towards you.

Not like what it used to be,

Heart aches from within yet you never know how to express it,

I do love you, I do.

But I never had the courage to say it face to face.

yours truly, Lorraine a.k.a babyLNJ'blossom'prrprr

I LOVE YOU ecid <3

I mean it.

When I'm at loss

Oh anyways, this is new might be a little plain.
But well who cares for now.
Didn't go to school again today,
so had a little time to post up.
My mum & I on cold war,
guess what I'm sorry I don't care.
I'm fine with it, she can might as well shut up.
Kinda lazy to do anything this few days.
Don't know why but just don't want to do anything.
Yesterday talked to sillyboy,
was like I don't know what to say.
But still managed to say what happened.
Though he can't do anything,
but yes at least I told someone.
Suddenly a thought hit me,
was I being naive,
was I being stupid,
was I?

At that point of time,
I remembered silyboy telling me this,
"I got a feeling what ever happen will happen again"
"Just take care of yourself"
I was really touched, but he said it was just a feeling.
Right?
Or is it a hint that he knows something I don't.
Well whatever will happen, will.
I don't wana know what will happen next,
but I just don't feel right.
Something this days just not what it seems like.

Been out with adeqstar quite often,
but pictures are too many upload,
shall upload it one of this days okay.
Upload some right now.